I forgot since when my passion for blogging fade off.

Is it due to my laziness?? I become numb to things that happens around?? I'm selfish, dun like to share anymore?? My life is too bored, nothing to share?? Or I'm just lack of passion to life??

My colleague shares some nice blogs with me. People from this blogs are working adults like me. They shares about their work, their happiness, their experience, recipes, photos, their life.

So I look back to my blog post during uni time. I'm almost in tears. I now feel like those posts are posted by some other people but not me. It is just so different, the way of writing, the words I use, the effort of me into these blog posts.

Is it because like what we always says, reality is cruel?? No more passion, no more life, no more humor?? Or there is too many other things, etc: jobs, depression, money... that pull you away from blogging?? Or I'm worry colleagues will accidentally found this blog, i felt unsecured to let people know about my real feelings, my weaknesses, my uncertainty??

I try to recall path of blogging.

First I blog because of curiosity. I see people have a blog, I also want to have 1.
Then I start enjoying blogging because I like to share.
Then I continue blogging because I want to keep a record for nice things that happens to me.
Then I start to share my thoughts because I got feed backs and advice and suggestions and encouragement.
Then after grad, I keep blogging because I want to let friends knows about what going on on me.
Then I slow down blogging, erm, I can't think of why...
Then I blog because I want myself to keep on blogging, even though I don't know what to write.
Then my posts become more and more typical and dull.
Then I feel like I don't feel like blogging and I have nothing to blog about.

I was like, what the heck is going on?? What happen?? Is there really nothing to blog or I just being numb??

I don't like to take photos anymore, I don't like to upload photos anymore, in an event I'm most of the time quiet, you don't talk, I don't talk, you don't ask me take photos, I won't. I think I'm just lack of confidence I think.

Well, at least I make a first move in 2008 to KL. I already overcome the hardest first move, 2nd and coming 3 move should be better and easier and I believe I could make it happen.

Wish me luck. Get back passion into blogging, sharing and life.

Happy 2009!!!

 UNBELIEVABLE LUCK

Last Friday was my company dinner. Title is Red, Passionate Red, held at Subang Sheraton Hotel.

Nice decoration, the red looks so class, sorry for no pics, coz my home streamyx down, now typing in office, opps... I will upload later. This post is basically to share some exciting news with u all...

When I reach the place, I went for registration. It was divided in alphabetical order, A-C 1 queue, D-F 1 queue, etc, I quickly went to look for queue T -Z, but I can't find my name there, I thought they register under name of Clara, but then no, so I went to the main counter. When I reach, hard the person in charge told another lady, sorry, I really unable to locate your name, you have to wait, see if anyone drop off last minute then only u can join, I was like *wtf?? I'm well-groom and suffer from traffic jam and looking for parking and this is what I'm going to get??

Finally i approach the person in charge, and found my name is spell as "The Jian Ting (Clara)", well, thanks to Microsoft Word's auto-correct. Ok, so I'm entitle to join the dinner. And due to this is the first counter and I guess I'm the first person with issues, I get my lucky draw number S0001, the first number!! Oh yes, there is a door gift for each and every person, and RM10 Touch and go card (deposit is paid as well), oh, a touch and go card with a red hot chilli pepper on it, pics later...

You can join to count the apples (1 box full of green and red apples, only count the red), shimmering temporaily tattoo, and not to forget, lucky draw!! Lucky draw is like this, 4 boxes, 1st, 2nd, 3rd prize each 1 box, another box is 4th prize and 200 other smaller prizes, means u can only choose 1 to put in your draw. If u want 1st prize, which is a ogawa massage chair, only 1, you are competing with others that only wants this, the rest prizes have nothing to do with u, something like this.

With my previous no luck experience, last box seems good, more chances ma, 200, so I drop my draw to the 4th prize + 200 small prize box.

All the 200 small prizes number were announce during dinner time, no my name, so is normal, I dun have this kind of luck, so end of story I guess.

But, I forget there is a 4th prize!!, and you know what, the 4TH PRIZE BELONGS TO ME!! When the MC annouce my name, I'm so unbelievable!! And you knwo what?? Is a RM1500 TRAVEL VOUCHER, you can choose whatever place you want to go, as long as the travel agency able to offer!! What a luck!! I never had this kind of luck before, I'm so excited!!

Actually at first I'm not that happy with the dinner, I'm not that close with my colleagues yet and I really don't know how to mix with them. The show is fun and entertaining, I really laugh out from my heart, but then, I'm dull because I like have no interaction with others. I think is my issue, just passive, at least I can go and say, let's take photo together, but I didn't, I just realise I can be more active during the dinner. Thank god I got something in the end. At least cheer me up.

Well, overall I'm still happy, I think I just need more time and be more optimistic to get close with my colleagues then. I can't helping thinking where to go next year!!

THIS IS ME??

Found this very interesting link from some others people blog.

Here is the link: http://component.agilerails.net/generators/0344fded45

Just type your name and you will get the chart to show who you are, and this is what I get.

 

In text is

只有挨打的份：16.7％
貼心：15.3％
傻裡傻氣：15.0％
鄉愿：14.4％
阿里不答：14.0％
變態：7.3％
四肢發達：6.1％
眼睛脫窗：5.8％
有苦說不出：2.7％
充滿鬥志：1.5％
心平氣和：0.5％
智障：0.0％
撈：0.0％
宅：0.0％
邪惡：0.0％
猥褻：0.0％

Hmm... So I seems to be always kena bully... Quite true also... haha... The rest are quite ok, at least I didn't get things like retarted, evil... haha, you can try yours today and some other fun ones too...